Well we're nearly there.....Found out last night that the old dears in hospital - again, she was rushed in at 06:00. It was lucky we popped over, my sister said she had been trying to contact me.
Apparently the old fella was unable to wake her on the morning so they called an ambulance. The doctors were also unable to wake her and the next 48 hour are critical. She's a bit of a wineo my old Mam likes the oldBacardi - large - virtually neat.
She's been drinking for years, when I was a kid she used to send me over to the little paki shop in Symes Avenue to get her hooch, she'd always tell me to keep quiet and not to tell Dad. I hated it. Not because of the lying, so much but I was always worried the shop owner wouldn't serve me and how embarrassed I would be. And to some extent I think I didn't want to let her down. I was about 10 years old, might have been a bit older. I feel guilty for all the times I covered for her. Who knows she might have never got this bad if I'd told someone. But now, now with the foresight ofa 32 year old I know it's not my fault. But I get angry because I shouldn't feel guilt. But I do. Then I get annoyed with her. She shouldn't have put me in that situation and even now it seems as though through her drinking it's effecting not only her but everyone around her. It is so selfish. And for that I get angry with her, but, then I step back and realise it's nother fault she's an addict. Then guilt sets in.
So now I'm just waiting for a phone call.
We had planned for the old man to look after the children whilst we are in hospital but due to the unforeseen incident, we have had to go to plan B -unfortunately plan B was not even a plan, to be honest not even a B. So being the quick thinking individuals we are we came up with a plan. Then changed that plan. Then changed again I think we are on plan x at the moment, but it's all good. Allys mate is going to come down from Swindon and look after the little ones.This is a prime example of how her "problem" effects everyone. The friend had to make arrangements for her own children to be cared for and it's a knock on effect. It pisses me off. But I suppose it has taken my mind off the forthcoming event..... Angry again !!!!